Friday, June 25, 2010

Our very 1st anniversary...

Today is a very special day for US...
i used to be waited this day expectantly and it finally comes..
but the fate is always play tricks on us...
It should be a happy and memorable day for us..
but now..with the complicated status...hmm...
anyway,
Happy "Complicated" Anniversary...  ^________^

Monday, June 21, 2010

negative + positive..

I had been packing my stuffs since few days ago..
too many things to pack???  not really..
but just not feel like packing all stuffs up...

back to Msia...
that used to be my motivation of completing my busy degree life yet this is the dismotivation of packing all of my stuffs now...

face the future, face the fact..
seriously...is the time to think about all..
but now..the tasks that i had planned is just..playing playing playing...travelling travelling travelling...  :p
my brain is like..IGNORE everything automatically except meet up with my friends, play and travel...
omg!!!!  I had totally moodless of doing my resume....!!!  can somebody help me???

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negative feeling ended...positive UP!!!

heyhoo...New Zealand..IM COMING!!!
travel will always make me happy...haha...
leave 5 more weeks in Brisbane...
but..yenling and i decided to sacrifice our lovely 8 days for traveling to NZ!!!

count down-ing the last 5 weeks in Brisbane...
last 5th week...packing...lepak-ing...changing...
last 4th week...shopping...planning...outing with my friends in Brisbane.....
last 3rd week...NZ Trip!!
last 2nd week..back from NZ trip..settle all Doc stuffs..planning again...
last week...outing with my bro and his gf in Brisbane..+ Convocation!! heyhoo

hey guys...my convocation is held on...
Date: 22nd of July..
Time: 6.30pm..
Venue: Queensland Performing Art Center!!!!!

Friday, June 18, 2010

是我太过于善良吗?

最近,要想要思考要抉择的事有太多太多了...
好累...真的..
好希望自己能够坚决一点...不理智一些...偶尔做做自己...
但是....
习惯了不去做决定...习惯了不去多做解释...
习惯了依赖...习惯了逞强...
习惯了不管多难过都要笑着...
习惯了...但是好累...
越来越不知道自己要的是什么渴望的又是什么...
曾几何时...想要抛开一切顾虑和任性,去追求想要的东西,找寻失去的自己...
但是这些习惯,却成了我作不了自己的障碍...

能不能有一天,我不在为别人而活
能不能有一天,我的脸上没有微笑
能不能有一天,可以不说话
能不能有一天...能不能...

有好多好多话想说...
但没能说出口...不敢...不需要...更不能说...
任性的话我不会说...
没帮助的话没必要说...
没结果的话更不能说...
有了希望,也得要有失望的打算...
不想失望,也就别抱任何期望...
开了口,得到的却不是想要的答案...
说出口,也知道是无法改变的事实...
那还不如什么都别说...

我以为我能在你面前做自己..
原来越是在乎一个人 越无法表现自己..

Friday, June 11, 2010

高兴/难过

今天把这一年半的Notes整理整理了 舍不得丢但也得丢
感觉就像快回家了一样....那也就表示我要离开了...应该高兴吗?
和燕琳通完电话,想想我们刚刚的话题...
Assessment, 考试, 旅行, 毕业, 回家, 作工..
好像已成了每一位出国生的必经之途..
能不能有点变化啊?闷....

身边的朋友们好像都有了自己的目标和计划...
我呢?也有..不过太多了...只是不知道怎么做选择...
乱!!!
借用燕琳的话...现在想是想,之后想也是想....那道不如迟些才想!! 哈哈

明天要...
开另一个Hotmail Account...
申请TwitterAccount..
整理Resume...
如果有空的话....像带着一本书到河边看....哈哈


是时候倒数回家的天数了吗?? 恩.. 还不想....

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

舍不得...

FINALLY!!!!!
LIM HUEY LING'd been done her DEGREE!!!   HOORAY!!!!

应该高兴还是应该难过呢?

万分的舍不得在心头
是人 是事 是物 是环境 是天气 是繁华 是简单 是方便 是回忆...

Thursday, June 3, 2010

茫然

连续忙碌了一个月半..终于撑到了我人生中degree生活的最后几天...本应在图书馆做着最后冲刺的我.... 缺一度陷入迷茫...
不是时间不够 也不是资料不足...
突然间有个要不得的念头...
我还真不想做完我的Assignments...
感觉上一做完... 我就得离开了...
本来应该抱着万分期待的我...
现在,已经没有当初一定得回去得坚持与动力...
但离开Brisbane却是我唯一的选择...

我不想重新编织我的梦想,
我不想思考未来,
我更不想面对现实,
计划永远都赶不上变化...
但很多事, 该来的总会来,该面对的还是逃不掉...

茫然....我该何去何从? 谁能告诉我....